I don’t know how to fight it anymore. Things always fall on my lap and it all seem to be my fault. I try to see it under a different light, another perspective but it all comes back to that moment where nothing was considered, not even me.
Someone at work always says the same thing. It is interesting how life always works out for the best if you believe in it. No matter how many deceptions you have had, no matter how many heart breaks, no matter how many mistakes, for as long as you believe in something good and pure, life will always work out in the best of ways.
I wonder if God is noting something tonight. I wonder if someone that has some sort of deals with destiny is witnessing what I am witnessing right now. I need some sort of answer right now. I need some sort of signal that would tell me how the following upcoming months will develop. I’m trying to stay positive and keep going on the right side of things. I’m trying to fight off temptations. I think life is giving me a huge test right now which I can’t even begin to describe how fucking hard it is.